Muscatine

I tell myself you let me go...


Funny,

I can say your name

or write it,

and not really feel

anything.



A month ago

I would be crying my eyes out,

like a baby

wanting a diaper change.

But here I am,

clean diaper.



Dont get me wrong,

I still miss you.

It just doesnt hurt

anymore,

finally.



Your voice

is a faint memory,

almost gone.

Right along with your face,

without pictures,

I believe I'd forget.

Why you ask?



Because,

I'm surrounded by people

who are so much more

beautiful than you.

There, I said it,

you're not the most

beautiful person in the world,

like I believed.



Lol, what an idiot I was eh?

Not really,

I just have my eyes wide open,

like before you,

and before her.



''I'm so far away and I just can't see you, I'm so far along and I don't just need you..''

hang in there, lasko

you are making progress. Thanks for sharing. You'll make it, your heart is filled with love for the right person. There is someone that will appreciate you for the sweet soul that you are. Be strong & continue to reach out for support. I just said a prayer that you find peace. Merry Christmas, lasko.